Well, there are a few but I don't know if all are from USM or not...~ Besides I am not interested in other people's business so I just inform KS that I am not bothered. We chatted a bit and all...~ But this person was kind of weird... Anyway... lets see if we can be friend...~
A few days of chatting...~ until Wednesday...~ After yoga... I wanted to go for dinner... KS asked what I was doing and I informed KS that I am going for dinner... and KS said 'bo jio'. Fine... if like that I asked KS out for dinner... and KS accepted... Okay...~ At least I have a company to have dinner with...~
Met up at N-Park... had dinner there and met up with this KS...~
We chatted to know a bit more about each other and KS started hinting a few stuff about KS's lover... saying that I was out with his lover for Starbucks...~ I started to crack my head... Starbucks with KS's lover...~ Recently I went out with a lot of people to Starbucks... gosh...~ who...~
And guessed what... in the end... it was EL... Shocked..? Well.. kind of...~
And KS asked if I like EL cause KS felt I like EL because KS checks EL phone and saw my message with EL...~ Well... let's be honest... I like EL at one point but after 2 days of knowing him better...~ I knew EL isn't the type of person I want and not my ideal lover...~ But KS still insist saying I still have feel for EL... What I can tell KS now is... I am more like flirting and disturbing EL...~ In a way to get back at EL... at one point of time, EL became a sweet talker and the thing was... EL didn't inform me that EL was attached... for a year and half... This is super messed up man... What EL is doing... and with all this lies...
This also proof that I was right and I made the right choice of letting go of my feel towards EL... <happy> but I felt pitiful for KS....
Next question KS asked bluntly... Did I have encounters with EL... Well, of course not... EL and I are of the same position, it would be impossible for us to have anything...~ More to senior and junior..~
Surprisingly, this, KS believe... but KS doesn't believe I have no feelings for EL anymore... To me in my heart... If KS told me EL was KS's lover... if I still like EL... I would have felt heart broken and sad... but I didn't and I was happy... and angry at the same time...~
Happy...? cause I let it go...
Angry...? cause EL lied and hurt KS...~ EL did told me... there is nothing to hide... EL will be open to me...~ all lies... and I hate liars...~ By current situation if I see EL, I will just give EL a tight slap and leave...~ But to protect KS... I am just holding back...~ (EL, you are lucky to have such good KS and I hope you realize it)
KS did say EL wanted to introduce me properly to KS... and they had fight before regarding EL wanting to meet up with me...~ Wow...~ I became part of their reason for a fight... Sigh...~
Now... EL doesn't know I know KS... and KS don't want EL know I knew KS...~ so practically... I am stuck in between both... have to pretend to be like normal in front of EL as thought I don't know all this...~ on the other hand...~ with KS... will chat about EL...~ yeah... practically stuck in between...
EL... EL... EL... still has not change and still the same old person with a sweet mouth... Seriously...~ I don't know what KS see in EL... good...? EL is not bad and good...? Gosh...~ I can only say... at least half of my ex that I has are way better than EL.... but I can break with my ex due to their mistake... How can I really like EL...~
But currently.. I am sandwiched in between both of them...~
Today itself... KS informed me that most probably EL know about KS knowing me...~ So...~ I still have to keep pretending I don't that KS and EL are together...
Two facts..~
1. I feel bad towards KS... (some things are best not revealed)
2. I don't like EL for over a period of time already.
I think what I type above is also messed up...~
All in all... I only know now I still miss BN...~ That's all...~
It's a basic truth of the human condition that everybody lies. The only variable, is about what...
