Wound opened...~

B... B... B...~

Was friend with B... kind of helped this couple A and B in their relationship... Maybe B had a good will and wanted to help back...~ So B tried to contact BN and get some info about me... and about BN...~

Well... not the brightest move I supposed...~

After 6 months... Finally I was almost able to tell myself... BN... since so long we don't contact and do anything... and BN didn't find me... Means we both are moving on nicely and I can let BN go...~

But recently... B came with news on BN... about BN and all... and it got me moved a bit it all was okay...~ I was able to still stand on my solid ground...

Until the day when I called BN suddenly to ask about the necklace stone he had... Cause I sent the necklace for polishing and maintenance...

BN brought up about B... and posted stuff chatted between both of them...~ and that opened the wound up of BN and me...~ Seems like I'm still in BN's heart...~ Damn...!~ Why must I know this...~ The reason I block BN out of my life... is so that I can have my life... and not BN in my mind...~

But due to B... BN and I chatted a while regarding B.... and no...~ B was not our common enemy that we both could be together... But my opened wound reminded me of BN of what happened 6 months ago...~ and suddenly... all the locked memories about BN and I creeps in...~

Those words... Those things that happened...~ What have we both done... What have I done...~

I was on the verge of letting go... Almost ready to start a new... But then... I am taken back now...~ I don't know what am I doing... or what I am suppose to do...~

Am currently re-enforcing myself to let go and that BN and I ain't possible...~ Even though I felt I was... Gosh...~ I am so contradicting...~

But for now... I really don't know what to do...~ I still can't forgive BN... and I am not going to make the move...~ Neither will BN...~

So... just let it go and let it be...~ I will try to move on again... But this time should be faster...~