Going back KL...~

One thing that I hate to do now is to go back to KL...~

Due to my financial crisis and also memories in KL...~ I am really reluctant to go back... Coming Monday will be my tribunal case and after this 1 whole month I finally realize actually there is nothing to do... Only a feeling of closure that we know in the end that nothing can be done...~ This is what we (my family and I) need...~

Hop into bus at 11am...~ and headed back to KL...~ on the way back will be thinking of BN...~ and when arrived KL...~ the feeling of BN starts to creep in...~ memories and what he did...~ And what if we can be back together... was there a chance...~ etc...~

I really don't want to think of all these...~ My life is as bad as it seems already...~ Losing my money... is bad...~ In a negative state is even worse...~ and then losing my lover... my foundation...~ Someone I finally thought is 'the one' for me...~ All fell apart...~

Anyway...~ arrived at KL... went out with sister to look for a guitar for me to fill my past time...~ And guess what... I can't even afford a guitar...~ Of course...~ the salesperson who tries to sell me one is selling me high end guitar and is reluctant to show me lower price guitar...~ I gave up trying to buy from him and left...~

Didn't do much as of today in KL first day...~ At least tomorrow JC (my ex) don't mind meeting up with me and hanging out with me... Besides he has stuff to pass to me...~ And I am also owing him money for stuff that I bought...~ Sigh...~ It seems I am starting to owe money from those around me...~ Feeling sad...~