Waste of time...~

As predicted...~

In the end, the Chairman asked to pull back the case...~ Nothing to argue and we know it was a waste of time...~ Well...~ at least we tried and now we have a closure...~

Time to go back to Penang...~ And never in my life have I thought of looking forward to go back Penang... As if I was from Penang...~

Surprisingly when passed by the station, well...~ actually I was not concentrating where I am while in the train cause I was playing game...~ But...~ yeah...~ I manage to skip that memories of BN and I...~

Early morning while walking to the LRT station before the tribunal, mom actually questioned me...~ What am I doing to myself now...~ I am 29 years old this year and what is with the ear ring etc...~ Then mom started to talk about my cousin last time putting on ear ring and how my aunt from dad's side freaked out even though those ear ring isn't permanent but clipped on...~ Then go telling me if my aunties sees it, then my father have to answer them and we will sort of have 'no face'.

Suddenly I don't know how to reply my mom...~ I mean...~ All this while, I have been living to their expectation... being who they want me to be...~ I really have no freedom and I couldn't do things that I want because I was worry... How thing will be...~ How people see my parents in bring us up and how my aunt and uncle sees us and our family...~  That was why, I wanted to move out... to have freedom..~ To have my OWN life and to LIVE the way I want it to be..~ This is just what I want...~ I just want to be me...~

Mom was waiting for a reply why I pierce my ear...~ And I can't reply...~ I really just wanted to tell her...  I want to run my life and do what I want...~ For a long time ago...~ But I couldn't bring myself to telling it out...~ In the end, my mom said... Unless I am trying to hurt myself because of what happened recently...~ Well...~ there is some truth in it...~ And I continue to keep quiet and let it be...~ Let that answer be...~ I walked faster and cross the road to be apart from my mom a while so that she would stop talking to me...~

In front of dad, she would not say all this... but behind dad, she will start questioning and querying...~ Sometimes she said it is dad who complained to her and she has to be the bad one...~ But sometimes I doubt... is it dad...~ Or is it mom herself...~ Dad will always say do what we like...~ But I know deep inside him, there are stuff he mind...~ So... till now...~ I don't know who is the one that don't like what I am doing...~ But for the moment... I really want to live my life...~

After the tribunal...~ Was thinking of whether to take the 3.10pm bus or other buses that is earlier...~ After thinking and wanting to go back Penang faster, I opt to take the earlier bus...~

So back to Penang already...~ Feel happy finally getting out of KL...~ Tomorrow still have class on...~ Sigh...~